February 5, 2013
Tonight, I started to think about why I
decided to go on this journey. When I made the decision to come here,
it was during those rough times in New Jersey and all my frustrations
with FEMA Corps at the time. I felt like I needed to be somewhere
where I felt useful. I wasn't getting that with FEMA. Other than
that, now that I think about it. It's all about trying to find my
independence. I'm 24 years old and I still feel like I haven't
stretched my wings much. Breaking out my shell is high on that list.
Just trying to find my voice and a lot of confidence. With this
organization, that's something I'm gonna have to do. I have to say
what's on my mind. Then it's possible that I may have to lead some
volunteers, but this time I don't have my teammates standing beside
me. I gotta be my own woman now. Gotta stand on my own two feet.
Honestly, that's the only thing holding
me back. Sometimes I wish I was loud and outgoing, but I'm not. That
isn't me. My voice actually gets people to shut up and listen for a
change, sometimes.
Anyway, I'm currently on some spiritual
enlightenment thing. It is most likely going to fail because I always
get frustrated with something and then crawl back into hole. Just
saying. Lord, Jesus, God whatever higher being is out there, guide me
in the right direction and give me strength.
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